Hello there!
First, here is a little info about my situation. I'm a huge anxiety sufferer who has resorted to alcohol and drug abuse over the course of my life to function or want to live but it has instead become an even bigger problem then the anxiety and depression itself. I would be considered a true addict if they really do exist and it isn't all related to some other underlying condition. I am on the fence when it comes to that and I’ll be using the term. I will see what I think in the end.
I have been through all sorts of treatment programs through out my adult life which were both voluntary and involuntary. I've tried abstinence and medication based maintenance with some success but in the long run they haven't worked for me. I have also had many more problems than just alcohol but it has been my goto while using other drugs or while I got away from the other drugs. I consider them all drugs, some are good and some are bad and alcohol is not in it's own class in my mind.
I probably have more personal experience as a drug addict than the majority will ever get to in their life time. I have manufactured my own drugs of various classes and had endless supplies that shouldn't be possible to afford, I have pushed the limits of the human brain and toyed with things that should not be toyed with. I have tried many exotic things to overcome my anxious/addict condition and feel that if this could work for me it could work for any body! I really hope this is it as I have tried many things. I am mainly classified as an alcoholic right now but that is just because it has always been a staple in my drug regimen and it works as well as other drugs do for this anxious addict type disposition. I truly believe all are the same no matter their drug of choice and Baclofen could be the answer for all of us.
I am not proud of this but it is how extreme my addiction is. Please realize that my way will seem as though from an addict's perspective, because it is. (Hate using the term addict but it is most easily understood)
I may go more into my history at another time but you should have an idea of the type of problem I'm having. My girlfriend in her desperate need to try and fix me found out about high dose Baclofen and Dr. Amiesen's book “The End of My Addiction” on the mywayout.org forums in the medication section. You can get more info on this here.
I have decided to start a journal/blog detailing my Baclofen journey for both my own use and to possibly help others who are thinking about trying this or who are already on it. I mainly want to document my alcohol consumption over the next few weeks (it is the only psychoactive drug I am on now) and will be detailing that so we can see any progress. Also I’ll be mentioning any side effects I experience as I titrate up on my dose as directed by my Doctor.
The first few weeks of posts may be a bit sketchy as the Baclofen will make it a little harder to think or I will be suffering slight alcohol withdrawal in some hours of the day.
I hope someone somewhere will get something out of this, if not it is good for me to have something to look over when I make or don't make any progress. Thanks for your time!
