170MG Still and Doing Great!

Hey another positive post today. I got a new place and moved into town to start networking more and try to focus on working and just getting my life together. My whole view on life is still great. I think the Welbutrin is part of it though but also the life changes. I just needed a totally fresh start where no one would judge me of my past anymore. It's hard to get better when you have people dragging you down. I think the main part of my addiction and alcoholism was due to an underlying very serious and chronic depression and not just addiction. I was self medicating the messed up place I got myself in.

I had 1 AF day so far, the other days were very in control and may have one today but a designer friend who could be a good business partner wants to get together and have a few social drinks. I think I can do that with no problem since the obsession just isn't there anymore. I do know if I drink too much while on Baclofen that I can't even walk right so I don't like drinking like that anymore, I used to love it. I feel that I can do healthy social drinking at business meetings or friendly get togethers like a BBQ with no problem, as long as it is improving life and not destroying it. My plan wasn't abstinence but control and to be happy in life which I think I am right now.

I can say if it is just the Baclofen doing this that it works! And I was a hardcore junkie. I have absolutely NO desire for those things and am pretty much disgusted by it now.

Not sure what day after Baclofen Up to 170MG though

Hey Guys!
Sorry I haven't been posting but I went through some really rough spots but now I think things are going to be a lot better! I have a lot of life changes coming up which I think I needed and is partly what caused my addiction problems in the first place. Right now I think I can take or leave alcohol. I'm still having a few beers a day but I don't really get much out of them and I think it's just out of habit more than anything. I had some weird problems with my meds for a bit but I think I got that sorted out. I'm just going to keep working with Dr.L and truly be honest with him about everything this time and I think i'll be just fine.

Anyway just wanted to chime and and say I am ok and getting much better now. There is something new in my life that I think will help everything.

Peace!

50th Day After Baclofen

I'm up to 150mg a day now and taking it all through out instead of large doses. According to my girlfriend I am suffering from severe clinical depression. I'm not sure myself but I can hardly eat and just don't have any interest in anything at all right now. It's hard to think more then simple thoughts. Well I can get a few days where I feel great and then i'm back here again.

My alcohol consumption has stayed pretty low or even none on some days so that isn't causing the problem. My mom had read that high dose Baclofen can cause this sort of depression but it seems pretty rare. I think i'll just ride it out since it usually goes away into a more euphoric or normal mood in a matter of days or after my next dose increas. Colors are aren't as bright as they should be and my mind is in a haze so I guess that is what depression is. I don't feel any psychical pain but I never do really so that is one symptom I don't have for sure. Some how with out being shitfaced or at least drugged every day life just isn't worth it as much as it was. It this somewhat sober existence all that life is?!

Trying to keep this cheery but about the best I can do. I had to write something but i'm sure it's not what anyone would care to read.